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I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you
[Children voices:]
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming,
if you're dreaming are you dreaming of me.
I can't believe you actually picked me | | |
| This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
I love you
And I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
I love you
And I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
And I've loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing, 'cause i'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go
I'm crazy...
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| alrighty then... I have wanted for some time to Voice my views on Love and marriage and relationships... I still have yet to fully do so... but here's a little something if you guys are interested...
Women: http://www.boundless.org/2002_2003/departments/beyond_buddies/a0000708.html
Men: http://www.boundless.org/2002_2003/departments/beyond_buddies/a0000687.html
and now off I go to question some things, and nail down exactly what it is that I should like to say on the topics.
For those who actually might be interested in my life, I am still waiting on my kentucky card so that I can start work. After starting work I look forward to the many things I have planned... such as moving out, getting a good computer, Buy books, fix my car give that one to jason and get myself a nice truck. Also will be saving for college at ACC or possibly Shawnee... not sure... If I can find a way to get the paramedic program taken out of my check at MTS I'll probably do that. it would be nice. I also may start firefighter training...
Now some people have been puzzled at my current carreer chioce, and for good reason. I have intellect enough I could go to college easily. But I couldn't pay for it, and I won't get loans because I'm not sure If I would be able to pay them off, I don't plan on going into debt... I plan on building my education from the ground up. I will always remember What a man who I consider my mentor said to me...
“The only one who can hinder the advancement of your education is yourself.”
He would know better than most because he spent twenty years in prison. during that time He read every book that their library had to offer and he gladly shared the information he had gained. Rick Erwin.
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| [It's just between
you and me
Get it straight before the sun goes down]
Sorrow is a lonely feeling
Unsettled is a painful place
I've lived with both for far too long now
Since we've parted ways
I've been wrestling with my conscience
And I found myself to blame
If there's to be any resolution
I've got to peel my pride away
(chorus)
Just between you and me
I've got something' to say
I wanna get it straight
Before the sun goes down
Just between you and me
Confession needs to be made
Recompense is my way to freedom now
Just between you and me
I've got something to say
If confession is
the road to healing
Forgiveness is the promised land
I'm reaching out in my conviction
I'm longing to make amends
So, I'm sorry for the words I've spoken
For I've betrayed a friend
We've got a love that's worth preserving
And a bond I will defend
(repeat chorus)
In my pursuit of
God, I thirst for holiness
As I approach the Son, I must consider this
Offenses unresolved, they'll keep me from the throne
Before I go to Him my wrong must be atoned
If there's to be
any resolution
I've got to peel this pride away
Just between you
and me
I've got something' to say
I wanna get it straight
Before the sun goes down
Just between you and me
Confession needs to be made
Recompense is my way to freedom
It's my way to freedom
It's my way to
freedom (2x)
I've got something to say, so let me say it today
It's my way to freedom (2x)
I've got something to say, confession needs to be made
It's my way to freedom (2x)
I've got something to say, confession needs to be made
It's my way to freedom (2x)
I've got something to say... | | |
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